When I was
younger than I am now the life was easier than now, all the free time I got in
that time was to share with my friends, on those times we could walk in the
middle of the night without a worry or danger, me and my friends used to carry
only a few money with us and on those times all the gadgets we carry on our
pockets were just an utopia.
I was not
that fat on those days, I enjoyed a lot to walk (still) and I did it a lot for
two reasons: pleasure and need. Now I can’t do that and not too often as I wish,
now on these days I have begin to walk on a different scenario: a gym, due to
the security problems and my sedentary jobs I’ve gained a lot of kilograms,
then I need to get in shape again as in the past, I ride a MTB but as I mention
before it is a bit complicated to ride at night safely here.
I don’t
know why life is so complicated or even worst, when we lose our steps, when we
lose our goals, why we change all the things we dreamed in the past in order to
live better? If such thing is live
better!
On my youth
I decided to be different of those that always were following new trends, to
follow my own path, made myself a way in this world, but at the end I am the
same as all the people, worried for the money, worried to be on time, worried
to do my best, worry for all those things I used to dislike.
Now I got a
passport, a wife, an official ID, a lot of gadgets that demands my attention,
but when I think about the past I can’t stop thinking that more than win I have
lost, I’ve lost a lot of things, a lot of activities, a lot of friends, a lot
of my liberty, a lot of my privacy, a lot.
Sometimes when
I stop a while on my daily routine, I can hear the boy I used to be, trying to
escape from my own, wishing to take just some clothes and runaway as in the
past, as when I left my home and my family, with a backpack of dreams and books
to read, ….wishing to buy books to read them eat them,….wishing to walk alone
in the dark night. On moments like this I feel nostalgia.
And I dream
that I am young again, and I am able to do whatever I want again, not just what is required to me for the individual I am now.
